I walked at least 4 hours today and listened a lot. It's been un believable how much of the past year I've come to fully understand by just taking time to think and digest. The past two weeks have been an experience in themselves, I've learnt almost too much to think about. I've had things inspire me that I didn't expect to pop up. I've met humans that have shown me how short in the past I really need to care for.
I have a lot of extremely good people very close to me and I have some unbelievably amazing people who mean the world to me in other states. These people I would ruin anything for, but it's a lot of the others I'm beginning to wonder why I try for. I'm literally on the front doorstep of a career I've wanted for so long, I'm hurting myself day in day out producing such watery works just to keep my head monetarily above water, so that one day I can truly express myself through my career which will by that point, theoretically be my art.
I want to showcase what I have in my head, and I have the means to translate it into a language people can understand, I just need the time and motivation to build my empire, at which point I won't even mind if people see it, I just want to have it around. Just to know that regardless of what person I am by that point, who I am at this point exists if only in my product.
